Tuesday, July 31, 2012


I'm going to try and keep this as simple as I can. 
Wish me luck.

I'm usually pretty positive here in this blog about my life full of "hopes, dreams, and dresses", and yes, I do try and make adventures out of my weekends whenever I can if for nothing but nostalgia's sake


I'm not that cut and dry. 
(and if you know me at all, you know that I am anything but simple)
It's not all Instagrammy goodness and chevron striped dresses.

I'm tired. {graveyard shift work is not friendly}

I'm on overload. {mostly self imposed a because "no" isn't in my vocabulary as much as it should be}

I don't feel particularly enlightened lately. {but I don't feel like completely giving up either}

What's gnawing at me?

Well a few things...

 I'm the queen of multi-tasking but even I get overwhelmed from time to time. 

First off...
I am not new to blogging or writing at all, but it was always just a solo-singularity catharsis for me.
The social circus that come along with this new round of blogging has proved to be a bit daunting for me - both for being new to it and trying to jump in with both feet.

Before I get ahead of myself, by circus, I don't mean that with one bit of insult. 
 Heck the circus is pretty damn entertaining, but imagine being a kid there for the first time not knowing what to expect...lions roaring, clowns, dancing bears, acrobats, majestic elephants, dancing ponies, cotton candy and bags full of popcorn. 

If you're in the Blogger world, you should totally get what I'm talking about.

There's so much incredible content out there, so many bloggers doing amazing things, 
so many niches, photography, DIY, how-to, link ups, coffee dates, Wordless Wednesdays, Meatless Mondays, Thoughtful Thursdays, Instagram Fridays. 
 I look at all these incredible blogs and I don't get green with envy,
but I get a little bit yellow with wonder. 
 How do you do it all?  How do you ladies (and gentlemen) manage to work, take care of your families, your spouses, your charities, your hobbies, go to church, exercise, run marathons, bake cookies, and write about it nearly every day. 
How do you, how do you...???

The bills...
because they're totally piled up, I'm just trying to keep afloat, and as much as I love (can I say LOVE) having my space all to myself and now that "my place" so much more of a reflection of me than it ever has been before, I think I'm going to have to take on a roommate to get things straightened out for awhile.

My heart is...
well, I'm not gonna keep going all Taylor Swift with that thing
 1) that's just not me and 2)  I've {mostly} resolved that I am not the keeper of my destiny, there's a plan out there, and like Steve Job's says, you cannot see the dots connecting in the future, only when you look back, but you have to believe in it, in the plan, in whatever you choose to call it.
 I call it my Faith in God.

In the meantime, I do what I can do.
I set new boundaries.
I pray. 
{this is a force of calm in my chaotic everyday}

My body is tired exhausted.
I put myself on blast last week about my lack of fitness goals and regimen, and while I've had the most amazing support from my friends, my body is in that initial shock phase where all my muscles and joints are doing the collective WTF?! every time I move or lift something heavier than Styrofoam cup. 
I'll get over it, muscle memory is an impressive thing, and I'm actually craving a workout now, but I'm safely tucked away at work and at 6am when I get off, sleep will come knocking again before the gym does.
I'll get there soon enough.  I'm on a mission now, it's not just a pit stop.

{one of my favorite new finds, abeautifulmessinside.com
if not for the name alone, I found her recently and love  her site and her daily Facebook pick me ups.}  

I'm not looking for sympathy, so please save that for someone else who actually might really need it.

I'm just venting. 

I'm just trying to leave it all on the proverbial floor here on this blog. 
 Like in yoga studio, where I find I think so clearly, not just on the surface, but down in the depths of the what's bothering me.  
The heart of the problem. 
I think & I stretch & I sweat.

{from abeautifulmessinside.com}
I find that I keep seeing the same messages coming at me just a word or two at at time.
So, I am going to type them out right here and right now.
Because just like my fitness confession, breathing life into these simple words here for my little part of the world to see, well, it places them on a platform.  
Exposes them to the light of understanding. 
It gives them life.


Be still.



Let it be.

{just breathe}

~ Lauren 


  1. I love your genuine, honest and beautiful writing, it is so refreshing!
    There is a little like inspiration overload out there in blogland sometimes isn't it :)
    And your list at the end is something I am learning to live more of too :)


    1. Thank you SuzyQ! The last thing on my list...it's actually the tattoo I got on my wrist for my birthday this year. It definitely helps...just gotta practice it more and more :)

      I'm gonna come visit your blog now - Lauren

  2. Funny that you say that..Last night I was having blog anxiety. Just so much to do..but let me encourage you and say you are doing fantastic and will continue to do so!

    come say hi at nichollvincent.blogspot.com, happy Wednesday to you!

    1. Thanks lady! I'm gonna come visit you now :)

  3. I love the openness and honesty. Hang in there! You will find your balance soon.

    1. You know I know how to break it down...:)

  4. Great, honest, thought provoking post. I can relate. I think from time to time we all feel like this. There is just so much out there for us to take in...I think what we need every once in awhile is peace and quiet, a quiet walk, a day at the beach...reconnecting with nature brings us back to centre.

    Keep your chin up.

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    1. Thanks Tami..."simplify" is a word I'm going to embody more frequently in the next few months. Starting with today and cleaning the garage out in 96* weather! Haha!

  5. Hang in there girly! I totally sympathize with you about graveyard shift work. It's rough! And you are not alone wondering how some of these ladies seem to "do it all." My guess is that nobody REALLY does. Or maybe I'm just hoping that. Lol! Thanks for stopping by the other day :-) jenn


    1. I think we just need to figure out their secrets!!!!

      xo - Lo

  6. Amen Girl! I could check agreed to almost every single one of those things! (Except for the sore from exercising....unfortunately that hasn't been part of my regiment lately.)
    I too have been having a hard time finding the word "no" in my vocabulary and I am suffering for it! I am a girl that needs down time and have had very little the last 2 1/2 months! "Breath" and "be still" are two things I need to start saying WAY more often!
    Glad you stopped by my blog today, so that I was able to come across yours! Love it!
    ~ Elle @ Barefoot and Beautiful

  7. I have known you for almost 5 years now, and you have always been "that girl" that anyone could go to, at any time, for any reason. I think that's one of the things that draws people to you. I've been watching you this year as you have made huge steps forward in simplifying your life already. Dropping dead weight, reducing the mental/emotional/physical clutter that surrounds you. Don't sell yourself short, homey...you are well on the path to the simplification that you want so bad. You've been taking care of so many other people for most of your life so far, I'm glad you are finally taking care of YOU. You deserve it <3

    1. Girl...you know my drama all too well...I think I'm on the right path too, Lord knows what it took to get there. Thanks for always listening to my drama!!!